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Taylor Swift by RapidDisillusion
Taylor Swift
Holy crap that took way longer than I thought it would. This was supposed to be a birthday present for my friend. Her birthday was on the 21st January.... and well I finished on the 3rd March. It's more that my time management is shockingly awful than the fact that it takes a while to do this. I'll just say my printer wasn't working or something Crazy Something I've realized is that eyes are the WORST. Especially when you're trying to draw someone in particular. If you screw up the eyes it doesn't even look like them anymore! GAAHH. It infuriates me even thinking about it.
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Boy Portrait Study by RapidDisillusion
Boy Portrait Study
Feeling all deep n' shit so I decided to do a portrait study. I wanted to create a kinda reflective, somber mood. Also I reckon it's a good way to keep up with the digital painting, now that I HAVE FOUR MONTHS OF VACATION YAYAYAYAY :happybounce:
 
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Defenestration is the act of throwing someone or something out of the window. And if I could get away with that right now and if law and the rules of the universe didn't exist for just one moment, I totally would.


I'm trying to look for 3D models online to use for my animation assignment. We're about as knowledgeable as a pack of raisins when it comes to 3D modelling, so we basically have to rely on the generosity of online modellers to give us free assets. 


However, I suppose this is a desperate business, so people don't tend to be that generous. For the cheapest models I can find, I'm already racking up over $100 to spend on assets. I'M A TEENAGE GIRL AND I WANT TO SPEND OVER A HUNDRED DOLLARS ON A WHOLE BUNCH OF PRETTY LOOKING PIXELS. Forget about shopping sprees, late night clubbing and all o' that! If I could just freely waste my money on these fancy assets without consequence, that would be great.


And because I'm a cheap-ass, I thought I'd invest some of my time in learning how to model in ZBrush to save myself money for future projects. Big mistake.


I'm happily following along with online tutorials, scouring the depths of the internet for some decent looking rope videos (I need to model a rope..) and I've come across a few videos that just blatantly piss me off. They start off with this beautiful amazing final product at the start of the video that shows you what you're going to be creating. At this point, you're drooling and swear to convert religion to the YouTube user that uploaded it if you can get it to work. 


But then as you progress, you've realized you've made a horrible mistake. One moment, they're telling you exactly how to go about modelling. "Click here, transform this, enter in this numerical value to make this look slightly more fabulous..." and I shit you not, next second "Flip this upside down, perform a somersault with three hands behind your back and balance a burrito on your nose at the same time". SERIOUSLY. WHY. DO. YOU. DO. THIS.


Isn't the purpose of a tutorial for beginners to follow along cheerily, and you both work together to achieve a satisfying final result? I can FREAKING HEAR YOU click-clacking away in the background, rapidly typing multiple sets of shortcuts while I'm dumbfounded as the screen I'm trying to follow along from is going berzerk with all your crazy combos, and I can't keep up because I don't know what you're doing. 


FOR HEAVEN'S SAKE, if you are going to upload videos like that to the internet, please feel free. But do not include words like "beginner" and "tutorial" in it, so us modelling n00bs have gotten about an hour through your video before giving up in frustration. And that just basically applies to anything vaguely tutorial based. If I see another one of these video uploaders post the same stuff like that again, I'ma throw a potato at you.

  • Mood: Rant
  • Listening to: Eminem - Bad Guy
  • Eating: Chocolate
  • Drinking: Mango Juice
Semester 2 Previz Project by RapidDisillusion
Semester 2 Previz Project
Final composition for our semester 2 concept and previsualization project. It is an Aztec twist of the (German?) tale of Jorinda and Joringel. Still loads and loads to learn, but happy with progress, after a year of digital painting.
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Depression by RapidDisillusion
Depression
Did this guy last year (2013) in August. This was at the height of my previously undiagnosed depression and trying out digital painting was one of the only things keeping me from going off the rails. I thought I was doing a pretty decent job at hiding my feelings, but next thing I knew I got pulled out of my class and forced to see my doctor by my school. Fuck, that was the most terrifying thing. I couldn't even summon the guts to tell my parents so the counsellor had to do it for me. It didn't really hit me how screwed up I was until Dr. Alex asked me to tell him what's on my mind.

And for the first goddamn time in my life, I told someone how I truly felt. Tears, tears everywhere. One of the hardest things I've ever had to do. But he was patient, and he listened. And I think I just really needed that. All that terrible pain and numbness that had ravaged me for the previous four years just came pouring out. I was so scared that he would turn me away and tell me I was being dramatic. Thankfully it was quite the opposite. He then proceeded to ask a few more questions, had to go for a blood test, and then put on a course of antidepressants.

Far out, those antidepressants are something else. I remember the few days since starting it, I felt so nauseous at school. Those things really fuck with your brain chemistry. And your stomach. The amount of times I had to quickly escape class to puke was unexpectedly... a lot. Of course I got pulled up a few times because teachers thought I was skipping class. At that point I wasn't really brave enough to tell them what was going on so I just took the cool, aloof route and pretended I didn't know what they were talking about.

So will this thing ever go away? I don't know. It comes and goes. It's kind of like a blessing and curse when you take a path in art and design. It sits on your shoulder, demoralizes your every effort to improve yourself, and drags your confidence through barren deserts, rocky hills and merciless tides until there's nothing left. But when it temporarily lifts, you channel all that into your art. It fuels your desire to prove that voice wrong and that you're still alive, kicking and breathing. Art is escapism.
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Joe Lopez
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Student learning 3D animation, film, visual effects, motion graphics, gaming and concept art.
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Defenestration is the act of throwing someone or something out of the window. And if I could get away with that right now and if law and the rules of the universe didn't exist for just one moment, I totally would.


I'm trying to look for 3D models online to use for my animation assignment. We're about as knowledgeable as a pack of raisins when it comes to 3D modelling, so we basically have to rely on the generosity of online modellers to give us free assets. 


However, I suppose this is a desperate business, so people don't tend to be that generous. For the cheapest models I can find, I'm already racking up over $100 to spend on assets. I'M A TEENAGE GIRL AND I WANT TO SPEND OVER A HUNDRED DOLLARS ON A WHOLE BUNCH OF PRETTY LOOKING PIXELS. Forget about shopping sprees, late night clubbing and all o' that! If I could just freely waste my money on these fancy assets without consequence, that would be great.


And because I'm a cheap-ass, I thought I'd invest some of my time in learning how to model in ZBrush to save myself money for future projects. Big mistake.


I'm happily following along with online tutorials, scouring the depths of the internet for some decent looking rope videos (I need to model a rope..) and I've come across a few videos that just blatantly piss me off. They start off with this beautiful amazing final product at the start of the video that shows you what you're going to be creating. At this point, you're drooling and swear to convert religion to the YouTube user that uploaded it if you can get it to work. 


But then as you progress, you've realized you've made a horrible mistake. One moment, they're telling you exactly how to go about modelling. "Click here, transform this, enter in this numerical value to make this look slightly more fabulous..." and I shit you not, next second "Flip this upside down, perform a somersault with three hands behind your back and balance a burrito on your nose at the same time". SERIOUSLY. WHY. DO. YOU. DO. THIS.


Isn't the purpose of a tutorial for beginners to follow along cheerily, and you both work together to achieve a satisfying final result? I can FREAKING HEAR YOU click-clacking away in the background, rapidly typing multiple sets of shortcuts while I'm dumbfounded as the screen I'm trying to follow along from is going berzerk with all your crazy combos, and I can't keep up because I don't know what you're doing. 


FOR HEAVEN'S SAKE, if you are going to upload videos like that to the internet, please feel free. But do not include words like "beginner" and "tutorial" in it, so us modelling n00bs have gotten about an hour through your video before giving up in frustration. And that just basically applies to anything vaguely tutorial based. If I see another one of these video uploaders post the same stuff like that again, I'ma throw a potato at you.

  • Mood: Rant
  • Listening to: Eminem - Bad Guy
  • Eating: Chocolate
  • Drinking: Mango Juice

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MahSpleen Featured By Owner Feb 25, 2015  Student Digital Artist
Nigga.
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Ashlmet Featured By Owner Dec 19, 2014  Student Filmographer
HEY HI HELLO!

I know it's super late, but I still wanted to stop by and thank you for faving! It really means a lot!

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RapidDisillusion Featured By Owner Dec 20, 2014  Student Digital Artist
WAsssUUPP

I don't usually favourite something unless I really like it so you deserve it!
Your character design is very strong, keep doing what you do #1 
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WriteTimeWrongPlace Featured By Owner Mar 17, 2013  Student Photographer
Happy Birthday! :party:
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houk Featured By Owner Dec 2, 2012
Thank you so much for the :+fav:
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WriteTimeWrongPlace Featured By Owner Nov 26, 2012  Student Photographer
Welcome to DA! =]
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